so, back into my wormy brain i have gone. the past few days since being back at work its like my mind has just switched itself back on. to TORTURE me.
I do recall mentioning before going on leave how i was taking a holiday from my brain. well, my real holiday, and my brain holiday are now both certainly over.
Perhaps i can continue to take leave from my brain. just not sure how. perhaps it was a state of mind. being outdoors. cycling. running. soaking up sun. relaxing. maybe relaxation was a distraction from worry?
ah well, today my worries include:
- my brother leaving to go back to london = sore heart.
- best friend leaving again in a month = sore heart.
- work that i cannot do due to distracted and obsessed brain.
- the huge elephant in the building that is my ex.
another big sigh.
and then i remind myself that there are a lot of people worse off than me. and that in fact i am quite lucky and have fantastic life with so many incredible things, people and qualities to be grateful for ?
and then, the worry returns.
nothing lasts forever.